" You have a right to be here" - Sylvia Plath

The Red Queen

The Red Queen
Soaked in blood were roses of white,
Little reminders of the Red Queen's might.
Cracked grounds and cloudless skies,

Echoed by those whom lost their lives.
Towering castles made of flesh,
Veins and arteries made a mesh,
Of which skeleton guards went to protect,

Nothing could stop a card thats undead.
Winds of dust and burning heat,
Lead to where you and the queen might meet.

I'm The Queen not a princess

In the belly of the beast was where the queen lay

 

To be feared, not loved, is what she demands.

 

The Red Queen
Soaked in blood, so no one dare challenge me
and strong

The only words he knows are the famous 'OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!'

You deserve to be happy, to feel beautiful, and to be loved

 

                                     

In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away

   - shing xiong -

well, a bridesmaid who wore costume cinderella

Yesterday when I was attending a party, wedding party.
And it takes 5 hours to get there because it is located in Central Java.

All people and all my family told me to be a bridesmaid and I felt "okay why not? I would gladly be happy and I would be like in a royal concubine" and everyone laughed also my Dad.

Promptly at 8 pm Mom came to my room she gave a long dress like that cinderella had but pink collour 
and i like it.
"wow this is cool, Mom" and she wanted me to wear it tomorrow.
"You will be cinderella, not bridesmaid"
and I just only says "well, a bridesmaid who wore costume cinderella"

And when the sun rises from the sky. I feel the crisp morning breeze and fresh in my eyes.
I have never felt this in my city, Bandung. 
This is my mother's hometown. 

And i hear people busy with preparing for the wedding ceremony will begin at 11am 

I left the room and look for bridal room and wow I peek behind the curtain of white translucent transparent "she's really beautiful" I went into her room and she smiled. I told her she was so beautiful. 
me: you're really pretty I'm so jealous, are you happy? 
she: I am happy, very happy. One day you will feel it. Dont worry. 

Then she took my hand with softly.

There is something that makes my heart cry that time, I was sad. I was really sad. I want to be a bride. not just a bridesmaid. Only god know my feeling at that time.

I left the room and the bride prepares to escort the bride and a bridesmaid .

And the time came that awaited bridegroom time to see how beautiful the bride. Oh god this beautiful. And I was wearing a dress cinderella given mama last night.
And I feel happy and sad mixed.
I honestly cry. but on bottom of my heart and once again I have to say "I want to be a bride"

And that's when my grandmother came and she stood next to me and she asked me a question that I dont like in my life. I really hate that question.
She said "hey gurl, when are you getting married?"
Hmmm with calm and relaxed i says "SOON!!"

Then i walked away.

quote of the day

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” 

- Steve Jobs -

I'm the Queen and lost in the darkness swallow

The Thunder Gods play for her the music moves the stars .

They play on drums stretched taut with skin and astral guitars.

Beyond the blackened trees of barb wire  and razor branch

that catches  and tears at tender flesh causing it to blanche.

Through the mists of tattooed memories and rendered flesh and bone.

Sits the Dark Queen and her King upon a raven feathered throne.

She whispers to my nightmares and lulls my waking fears.

She calls to light the fires of the abyss and quells them with dragon tears.

The dead walk to honor her  with rose and lily shrouds

While in her hand is the great and secret show  that exists beyond the clouds.

  

                                                                                                            

 

                                                                                                                                                                           

 

YOU JUST CAN CALL ME, EVE ..

Today  i spent time with my sister and as usual we love photograph :)