21.5.13

Sometimes I get tired. Sometimes I get bored. And sometimes all I want, more than anything else in the world, is to go on a freaking date

I'm lonely. And I'm lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs. And it scares the shit out of me to be this lonely because it seems catastrophic.


And have you ever felt completely alone in this life? Oh God almighty, I'm feeling it tonight
I was alone, I was lonely, I was cold alone
I fell into the deepest abyss.
I fear.
I hate situations like this.
I just wanted to go up to the mountain top and scream "I need somebody"

When you're surrounded by all these people, it can be lonelier than when you're by yourself. You can be in a huge crowd, but if you don't feel like you can trust anyone or talk to anybody, you feel like you're really alone.

Sometimes I get tired. Sometimes I get bored. And sometimes all I want, more than anything else in the world, is to go on a freaking date.

I've never been lonely. I've been in a room. I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness.  You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Tuesday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in factories. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's drink more wine!


The pain of being alone is completely out of this world, isn't it? I don't know why, but I understand my feelings so much, it actually hurts. 


I feel like a lone firefly in glass aquarium

I'm tired.
I need someone bamboozling me. Stroked my hair with love and affection, kissed my forehead before I fall asleep. I need you.

Hey!! please  take me out from this  glass aquarium..