13.6.13

well, a bridesmaid who wore costume cinderella

Yesterday when I was attending a party, wedding party.
And it takes 5 hours to get there because it is located in Central Java.

All people and all my family told me to be a bridesmaid and I felt "okay why not? I would gladly be happy and I would be like in a royal concubine" and everyone laughed also my Dad.

Promptly at 8 pm Mom came to my room she gave a long dress like that cinderella had but pink collour 
and i like it.
"wow this is cool, Mom" and she wanted me to wear it tomorrow.
"You will be cinderella, not bridesmaid"
and I just only says "well, a bridesmaid who wore costume cinderella"

And when the sun rises from the sky. I feel the crisp morning breeze and fresh in my eyes.
I have never felt this in my city, Bandung. 
This is my mother's hometown. 

And i hear people busy with preparing for the wedding ceremony will begin at 11am 

I left the room and look for bridal room and wow I peek behind the curtain of white translucent transparent "she's really beautiful" I went into her room and she smiled. I told her she was so beautiful. 
me: you're really pretty I'm so jealous, are you happy? 
she: I am happy, very happy. One day you will feel it. Dont worry. 

Then she took my hand with softly.

There is something that makes my heart cry that time, I was sad. I was really sad. I want to be a bride. not just a bridesmaid. Only god know my feeling at that time.

I left the room and the bride prepares to escort the bride and a bridesmaid .

And the time came that awaited bridegroom time to see how beautiful the bride. Oh god this beautiful. And I was wearing a dress cinderella given mama last night.
And I feel happy and sad mixed.
I honestly cry. but on bottom of my heart and once again I have to say "I want to be a bride"

And that's when my grandmother came and she stood next to me and she asked me a question that I dont like in my life. I really hate that question.
She said "hey gurl, when are you getting married?"
Hmmm with calm and relaxed i says "SOON!!"

Then i walked away.













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